you and me and a Joshua tree.
This morning she's whispering to me and desiring to make a declaration of her presence. In her distinct voice, so much more impassioned and alive than my own, she reaches out to be heard.
She wants to tell you that you are the breath that gives sound to her voice and the fire that burns within her soul. She wants to shake me awake so I could be one with her, so I could step fully into her her skin, and know the truth and beauty of a life realized at last.
I want to get out of her way. I have stolen her voice and kept it shackled in chains, I've tied it down with inhibition and fears of annihilation. It's me who has clipped her wings and denied her flight into the ether which holds the fragments of our hearts and lost days that ache to be remembered.
She's begging me to let go and live without the fear that binds me to dark shadows that will never bear the truth for me to bare the truth.
You, my love, are in us and out of us, and the thing that would bind us together. Me and she, the truth that longs to just be free.
She hopes that she is heavy upon you, but that you would feel her lightly, as a tingle in your spine and radiating warmth that would fill your belly and your bones. I want you to feel it too as a gentle tugging on your heart that draws you closer. She hopes that her voice is a whisper, ever present, in the back of your mind.
She's begging me to move and let go and to stop denying her nakedness. I want to step out of the fear to claim it. I ache to have you claim it. All of me and all of her.
I'm thinking of your arms today and in my heart and my mind you're holding me and not letting go. I'm thinking of hoped for moments of holding hands and shared quiet kisses.
I have a vision of meeting you in the desert, and making love under a Joshua tree while you whisper all of your long held secrets into my ear. Will you keep them for me? We both believe that our heart is the one that would hold them for you.
I'm praying for her, and me, and you. I'm praying that tomorrow or maybe even later today it might hurt a little less, or maybe I would finally gain a deeper understanding of what it's supposed to mean.
i miss you
i love you
me
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oh i love you so! thank you for making me smile.....