This spectacular upheaval of life after these albums provoked an inner storm, a mental sickness of anxiety for Justin. Of course it did. The dream had taken on its own life. It all came to a head on an empty Atlantic beach. I bore witness to my best friend crying in my arms, lost in a world of confusion and removal. Justin could barely even talk. It was only days before, on a misguided solo trip to an island off the coast of Greece, that he had recorded the opening words of 22, A Million, "It might be over soon", into a portable sampler. The forecast that begins this next Bon Iver undertaking is a reminder of our fragile existence. How when everything appears stable, it may crumble and fall through our fingers. How do we hold on to what is important? How do we make sense of the events that rip us apart? What choices do we have and how do we make them? It was the beginning of an unwinding of an immense knot inside. When confronted with daemons one must hold up the mirror in order to see the other side. For Justin, that begins with 22.
22 stands for Justin. The number's recurrence in his life has become a meaningful pattern through encounter and recognition. A mile marker, a jersey number, a bill total. The reflection of '2' is his identity bound up in duality: the relationship he has with himself and the relationship he has with the rest of the world. A Million is the rest of that world: the millions of people who we will never know, the infinite and endless, everything outside one's self that makes you who you are. This other side of Justin's duality is the thing that completes him and what he searches for 22, A Million is thus part love letter, part final resting place of two decades of searching for self-understanding like a religion. And the inner-resolution of maybe never finding that understanding. When Justin sings, "I'm still standing in the need of prayer" he begs the question of what's worth worshipping, or rather, what is possible to worship. If music is a sacred form of discovering, knowing and being, then Bon Iver's albums are totems to that faith.
Great choice. No surprise but I absolutely love Neutral Milk Hotel. This song you chose, is so good. I got into them my senior year of college (fall of 1999), just after the band evaporated, and I still love all his lyrics and inventive instrumentation. I still listen to them all the time. I tend to listen to Avery Island more that Aeroplane, because Aeroplane is like 1 single 45 minute song for me where as Avery Is. has a few break points. He has(d) such an amazing way of weaving person stories of tragedy with societal and historic events. I've long thought much of Avery Island was about abortion, but who knows really.11. Neutral Milk Hotel - Song Against Sex
When I was 20 I thought Neutral Milk Hotel would forever be the most important band in my life. I could have written ten thousand words on Aeroplane and barely scratched the surface. For a relatively obscure band, I came to them reasonably early, like freshman year of college, and I think as an 18 year old while your frontal lobe is still forming you can just get completely and utterly blown away by something and make it part of your personality for years to come. That was still way too late to catch them live while they were first on tour. I’d later see Jeff on the solo tour in York, PA (front row! Bawled my eyes out.) with some friends; know some fellow Deacs were there too. And eventually did get to see NMH at a big venue in Philly. Had a poster up in my cubicle at work from that show until we changed offices over the pandemic. So I guess they are still a very meaningful band for me, I just find the commitment of listening a lot more to take on these days, or maybe some of the novelty has worn off.
However, there are some extremely special things for me about the band I’ll think about forever. That York show was one of Jeff’s first back after the long break, and he was clearly so nervous. Halfway through the first song the crowd was screaming words back at him and his expression and body language totally changed—he was completely shocked people were this into it, that they’d pack a theater and hang on his every note. Oh Comely was forever the biggest impact on me, and busting that one out just about broke us all, I think. That memory will go down as one of the most personally thrilling and special shows I’ve seen.
At the show in Philly we met up with one of my wife’s friends who, within the span of 18 months had been kicked out of her parents house when she came out to them as gay, while she was undergoing chemotherapy for a rare bone cancer (she’s in remission now and married and killing it), and she’d just lost her job and her dog died. It was a lot to catch up on—we sat in the tailgate of my trunk and drank a couple Troegs beers and smoked a quick joint and rode into the venue on some pretty heady vibes. When NMH came on, our friend’s face completely and utterly transformed—she told us after the show it was the first good thing to happen to her in a long time. They closed that show with Song Against Sex. Members of the band left the stage and walked into the crowd playing the flugelhorn and the saw and the banjo while Jeff rocked on a rocking chair and took it all in. How strange it is to be anything at all.
I’m glad I didn’t fully miss the boat on this crew. Song Against Sex has replaced Oh Comely and Holland, 1945 as my favorite some time ago. I have to chuckle first of all at the notion of people having sex while any NMH song plays. While it still has some gross out style lyrics and bizarro instrumentation, this is the most straightforward and rocking song they wrote. It is a couple steps from a mainstream pop hit. It’s not that I don’t still embrace the weird, the scary, the ultra high concept, the hard to immediately grasp. I do, but I think growing up a tiny bit I appreciate good songwriting when I hear it now too, and this is definitely it.
What a way to send off a song and kick off a record
So why should i lay here naked
When it's just too far away
From anything we could call loving
Any love worth living for
So I'll sleep out in the gutter
You can sleep here on the floor
And when I wake up in the morning
I won't forget to lock the door
Because with a match that's mean and some gasoline
You won't see me anymore
I would definitely say I like Zeppelin and some of their songs are ones I "casually" love and randomly get stuck in my and randomly sing: Whole Lotta Love, Rock and Roll, Ramble On, Trampled Underfoot, Immigrant Song, etc. WLL is probably the riff I play the most if I'm mindlessly noodling on guitar, either that or Tweezer. (honorable mention is "In Context" by Field Music who I'm pretty sure blomqvist taught me about on these here boards).
But I've never really gotten attached to them for some reason, this might not be factually correct, but I get the impression that they didn't spend nearly as much time on their songs as some of the bands I really love. E.g. I don't think there's anything Zeppelin did that gets me even close to as excited about as almost any of the songs on Rumours. A friend of mine used to just drink and go into crazy detail talking about the nuances of the musicianship (almost like one of those Rick Beato videos on YouTube), but LZ has never elicited that type of response for me. I do really like the intro to The Song Remains the Same.
I'm curious if I'm crazy or if that is a shared opinion.
I agree they didn’t spend as much time on their songs as the other great groups did. Per Bonham, the most takes they ever did was four.I would definitely say I like Zeppelin and some of their songs are ones I "casually" love and randomly get stuck in my and randomly sing: Whole Lotta Love, Rock and Roll, Ramble On, Trampled Underfoot, Immigrant Song, etc. WLL is probably the riff I play the most if I'm mindlessly noodling on guitar, either that or Tweezer. (honorable mention is "In Context" by Field Music who I'm pretty sure blomqvist taught me about on these here boards).
But I've never really gotten attached to them for some reason, this might not be factually correct, but I get the impression that they didn't spend nearly as much time on their songs as some of the bands I really love. E.g. I don't think there's anything Zeppelin did that gets me even close to as excited about as almost any of the songs on Rumours. A friend of mine used to just drink and go into crazy detail talking about the nuances of the musicianship (almost like one of those Rick Beato videos on YouTube), but LZ has never elicited that type of response for me. I do really like the intro to The Song Remains the Same.
I'm curious if I'm crazy or if that is a shared opinion.