my intelligence is a source, perhaps THE source of anxiety in my life
whether it be IQ or standardized tests, i score very well, 99th percentile of americans
but when it came to school, or when it comes to decision making, or just generally navigating the world around me, i would put myself somewhere below average
sometimes it's paralysis by analysis, sometimes it's lack of self-awareness, sometimes it's just utter confusion
i lack memory, concentration, and spatial reasoning too
i think a big part of all this is just being a millennial who spends far too much time thinking about himself and his brain